This is not at all apropos of the latest (and very exciting!) news on our site. But its something I’ve been needing to confess for a while, and it won’t wait. Sorry!
The idea that true immortals live in the world naturally fascinates me; after all, I’ve had a life long obsession with conspiracy theories, and what greater conspiracy could there be than one involving Immortals? This is the obvious motivation for my participation in this project and this website, and it’s the one I endorse.
Except it’s not my real motivation at all. I’ve been deceiving myself.
The fact is, I’m very sick. I have what they call brittle diabetes. That means it’s hard to keep my blood sugar under control, even with nine kinds of medication. I’ve had it since I was little, and it’s taken its toll. At the bottom of my mind there’s a hope that if we make contact with immortals we’ll discover some way not to die.
This makes no rational sense. They probably have no idea why they don’t get old. But I can’t keep from hoping they do know, and that I can learn something from them. Self deception again!
In the meantime, I’m doing everything I can think of to stay well. I work with an endocrinologist, a cardiologist and a renal specialist, and I also see a holistic doctor and use supplements. I exercise. I read mendosa.com like it was the Bible. Because I do all this, I’ve held up longer than my specialists expected. But now I’m starting to go downhill.
I do believe that a time will come when we learn how to overcome disease and death and stay healthy forever. But now I’m afraid I’ll die before it happens. – Glenn