Bondage as psychotherapy

By Flyss. September 12th, 2010

Installment 5 of the The Mortal Janice, (Narrative 3 of  The Immortality Project) is titled Bondage as Psychotherapy. It’s rather electric. But it also puts a lot of things together.

Really, the idea starts in Installment 3, Connecting the Dots. Janice gets Blair a piercing, in part to help disguise him, but also because she instinctively senses he needs to feel something. In Installment 4, Poisoning Myself, Janice reflects in various ways on how limitation and wounding put one in touch with life.

In this installment, she takes it further.

Blair has been getting a CT-scan looking for GPS trackers in his body. (I had one of those, for the same reason.) Janice comes back from just barely not having sex with Marcus, a man she just met, and finds out that Blair’s clean. More than that: the radiologist says that his body is utterly perfect. She gets a CT herself, and discovers that, like most people, her body is full of internal imperfections; she might even have a brain tumor (though she probably doesn’t.) The comparison angers her, and that night when they have sex she is aggressive, and introduces him to bondage. Her anger is also love, though, and when she sees how he reacts her heart opens to him.

He wasn’t playing at being scared; he was damn scared, even by loops of scotch tape.

And he loved it. We broke the tape pretty quick, which would have happened even with regular sex but this was hot, hot sex. I leaned all my weight on one of his arms to make it stay up by the post and told him to pretend he was still tied and not to touch me. Extremely hot.

He was surrendering. He was surrendering to me, and in his mind it was more than play. For a guy like him, it was real surrender.

Bondage psychotherapy.

I’m not sure who cried first, me or my downed angel.

There’s a great deal else in the installment too. Janice’s internal dialogue is entrancing: sexy, hilarious, poetic and perceptive all at once . — Flyss

P.S. This section also gives new meaning to the title of Installment 7 of Narrative 1. :-)

4 Comments

  1. C says:

    he’s been running away for a few hundred yrs, i don’t think it’s going to be solved in one night

  2. C says:

    bless her for going down the paths, not many of us willl dare to go to.

  3. c says:

    Janice really has a beautiful mind, she’s raw, undefined but refined by her experiences, and fearless. I’m overwhelmed by her persona.

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